Saturday, June 21, 2008
In conclusion
i went to fetch my uncle's family from the airport just now..dunno wat's the occasion..for once my vsnp frns were having a grp conversation on msn while i was away..some who weren't on my contact list..basically 1 of them was trying to figure out who is who..seems like when i was mentioned the guy simply can't recall anything abt me..den only comments i've got was how "notorious" i was...
i remember when i had to go to poly instead of jc..suddenly it just seems tt i've lost all my frns..none of my sec sch frns tried to keep in contact with me..tt was the 1st time i realised how easily i get forgotten..at tt time i tot it must have been bcos i was a lousy person or i din really treat them as frns either..so when i went to jc i told myself tt i'll try to open up n make frns..probably get a gf..i did open up n i put in very much effort to maintain friendships esp during this ground leader training when i'm identified as some1 withdrawn...even tried to get back in contact with some sec sch frns..n in ns i tried to bond with ppl...but then after all these years i've still hasnt gotten any true frn..much less tok abt gf..none tt i can really bare my heart to..most of those so called "frns" wouldnt think of asking me out when they need company..ppl dun bother keeping in contact with me..sometimes i just wonder whether i'm so unworthy as a frn or am i so easily forgotten...at least i think i've done my part as a frn...apparently it seems like i'm destined to b a loner..i din want to accept how things r but in the end i just return to square 1..so the conclusion would be tt i'm better off alone
posted at 1:46 AM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
In conclusion
i went to fetch my uncle's family from the airport just now..dunno wat's the occasion..for once my vsnp frns were having a grp conversation on msn while i was away..some who weren't on my contact list..basically 1 of them was trying to figure out who is who..seems like when i was mentioned the guy simply can't recall anything abt me..den only comments i've got was how "notorious" i was...
i remember when i had to go to poly instead of jc..suddenly it just seems tt i've lost all my frns..none of my sec sch frns tried to keep in contact with me..tt was the 1st time i realised how easily i get forgotten..at tt time i tot it must have been bcos i was a lousy person or i din really treat them as frns either..so when i went to jc i told myself tt i'll try to open up n make frns..probably get a gf..i did open up n i put in very much effort to maintain friendships esp during this ground leader training when i'm identified as some1 withdrawn...even tried to get back in contact with some sec sch frns..n in ns i tried to bond with ppl...but then after all these years i've still hasnt gotten any true frn..much less tok abt gf..none tt i can really bare my heart to..most of those so called "frns" wouldnt think of asking me out when they need company..ppl dun bother keeping in contact with me..sometimes i just wonder whether i'm so unworthy as a frn or am i so easily forgotten...at least i think i've done my part as a frn...apparently it seems like i'm destined to b a loner..i din want to accept how things r but in the end i just return to square 1..so the conclusion would be tt i'm better off alone
posted at 1:46 AM
Goals keep a person motivated and encourage continuous learning so here are my current goals.
- Learn to play guitar
- Backpacking in Taiwan
- Get my own car
- Start my own business
