Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Changes
for some reasons i've been very irritated with myself...been like this for quite some time...yesterday i just sort of lost my temper at my mum over dinner...she prepared roast meat for dinner which i tot was ok..but when i started eating i realised it was a nightmare...the meat was either so tough with super thick layer of fats or it was so dry n hard tt i couldnt even bite...considering the fact tt i have braces n worse was i'm 5 ulcers in my mouth..i dun feel gd when i lose my temper at my mum n i've made a promise b4 tt i wun lose my temper at her..
ever since entering uni i have friends tt i've not met for a long time telling me tt i've changed a lot...esp in terms of appearance...i have ppl saying tt i look like my bro, better looking now but then it's funny tt i hear from my bro's female friends saying he is shuai while i dun hear any such comments...n they said it rite in front of my face..how hurtful...sob...n i always c tt it's the case of gers going after my bro while i'm like hopeless..anyway, somehow in different phases of my life there r things tt had made me changed much..like how going thru council, army, failing my o'lvl etc, changed me...sometimes such a big change tt even i counldnt recognise myself...yet there r also some things tt nvr change a single bit...like tis sillyness in me nvr change...only some ppl noe...n like tis stupid temper of mine..more often than not i'm pissed with myself rather than other ppl...but i still lose temper at other ppl..now i'm going thru some changes too..however, i dun like tis change..in fact, i hate it..
exams r coming n i'm having a big problem of getting myself to study now..cant focus n nothing gets into my brain...things cant b any better with constructions all around my estate..puts my mood off to study...it's so bad tt i'm thinking of dropping out from uni...something tt ppl would not except coming from me
posted at 9:34 AM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Changes
for some reasons i've been very irritated with myself...been like this for quite some time...yesterday i just sort of lost my temper at my mum over dinner...she prepared roast meat for dinner which i tot was ok..but when i started eating i realised it was a nightmare...the meat was either so tough with super thick layer of fats or it was so dry n hard tt i couldnt even bite...considering the fact tt i have braces n worse was i'm 5 ulcers in my mouth..i dun feel gd when i lose my temper at my mum n i've made a promise b4 tt i wun lose my temper at her..
ever since entering uni i have friends tt i've not met for a long time telling me tt i've changed a lot...esp in terms of appearance...i have ppl saying tt i look like my bro, better looking now but then it's funny tt i hear from my bro's female friends saying he is shuai while i dun hear any such comments...n they said it rite in front of my face..how hurtful...sob...n i always c tt it's the case of gers going after my bro while i'm like hopeless..anyway, somehow in different phases of my life there r things tt had made me changed much..like how going thru council, army, failing my o'lvl etc, changed me...sometimes such a big change tt even i counldnt recognise myself...yet there r also some things tt nvr change a single bit...like tis sillyness in me nvr change...only some ppl noe...n like tis stupid temper of mine..more often than not i'm pissed with myself rather than other ppl...but i still lose temper at other ppl..now i'm going thru some changes too..however, i dun like tis change..in fact, i hate it..
exams r coming n i'm having a big problem of getting myself to study now..cant focus n nothing gets into my brain...things cant b any better with constructions all around my estate..puts my mood off to study...it's so bad tt i'm thinking of dropping out from uni...something tt ppl would not except coming from me
posted at 9:34 AM
Goals keep a person motivated and encourage continuous learning so here are my current goals.
- Learn to play guitar
- Backpacking in Taiwan
- Get my own car
- Start my own business
